On Repeat

On repeat
Unable to turn off the same scene
On a constant cycle
Continuously playing the same moments
Capturing the same feelings
On repeat.

On repeat
it's trying
and altogether too tiring
To listen to the same thing
on repeat.

On repeat
The reason still unfounded
The reason why they won't stop
These scenes, these feelings
on repeat.

Cars whiz by 

The world turns

I sit still and take notice

Cars passing by

Sirens sounding

We should notice the moments 

When time passes by

You still haunt my thoughts
You still dwell in my dreams
Always in the back of my mind -

Will I ever stop breaking at the seams?

Stuck in Limbo

I'm always stuck in limbo
That's why I feel the need to escape.

Stuck in between the past & the future,
the present a blur.

Waiting.
Always waiting
for what comes next.

Unable to shake what has
already happened.
Unable to stop thinking about what
will happen.

Stuck.
Always stuck
in between.

Yearning to escape
this place
this present
this limbo.
Wanting
Always wanting
so desperately
to flee.

We are just tiny particles upon tiny

Particles

Just

Part

of

particles

That's

All

we

are.

You can feel the change happen.

But like the changing of the season, you can't fully recognize it
until it's happened.
It is complete.

Lost in the Haze

He was lost in the haze -

A maze -

of his own creation.

The smoke and drink that made him dizzy

did get his mind in a tizzy -

Used so as to not be confused -

Confusion goes unacknowledged.

He altered his mind to deny reality;

Just exciting his senses - in the moment -

--and

Excitement led to agitation

And agitation to frustration.

He was lost in the haze - 

No direction, no absolutes - 

All insecurity.

Lost in that maze he created -

in his own mind -

Refusal to accept, using the substances to forget.

Lost in the haze.

The cycle - you can't deny
Round and round, incline after decline
Decline after incline
The pattern - you can't see until it's behind